Saturday, December 9, 2006

goodbye...

"sometimes you have to let go to see if there was anything worth holding on to."
"true goodbyes are the ones never said or explained."
i said goodbye when i didn't want to. i had hope, but it failed me. i said goodbye because there was nothing left to hold on to; no hope to hold on to. it wasn't worth it. i almost wish as if nothing had ever happened. i am done holding on to something that was never there. this something turned into nothing.
at one point i thought it was worth holding on to. i said goodbye and found out it wasn't worth it. was any of it worth anything? i don't know. a question i don't think will ever get answered. did i get anything out of it? a friendship that wasn't worth the effort of developing. it began as something small waiting to grow into something...i gave it all i had. i put forth the effort that was needed. my efforts went unnoticed and unwanted. i am done wondering if any of these somethings will turn into anythings.
i guess what i'm trying to say is goodbye. goodbye to something that won't turn into anything. goodbye...

3 comments:

Nikki said...

Those are the kinds of experiences you learn from. You learn about yourself and about others. I've had plenty of those. When they happen, they really suck, but when you look back on it, you'll see there was a reason for it. I promise. :)

Me said...

I agree with her (not only because I have to ;) but because shes right). An apostle once said that all we go through in life happens for a reason and that it was in God's plan for you. So cheer up lil gipper, its all good. Besides, you dont have to say goodbye to me anymore, and I rock!

Summer said...

I can't say much more that isn't just repeating what others have said. But you just have to remember that the Lord's timing is always perfect, and you just have to keep that in mind. You can learn and grow from this and next time around things will go even better!

You are awesome Al, don't forget that!